THE BLOODY NERVE.

...............And here we go , this morning's most prominent feeling it would seem is Pissed off , who the hell does this stroke think it is?? .  I am due to have my shower , and that is no longer a thing I can do on my own , I sit in a shower chair , and any type of seating change causes the painful muscle spasms that reduce me to tears . 

 HOW DAREthis damned ghostly pain that seems to confuse the doctors so much , HOW DARE IT rob me of the pleasure of waking up and stretching , of a relaxing shower. I never was a big shower guy ...my sons could milk a shower for 20 minutes , it was like a rain forest in that bathroom ,;me , a few minutes to shower , shave etc., I just hate the idea that it's been taken from me by this unwelcome intruder , I am pissed at the bloody nerve of this unidentifiable pain and the massive amounts of sensation that seem to accompany it, for it's ability to make me afraid to shower, to live MYway ,.

At the prompting of my beautiful wife after watching several news programs on the subject , I explored marijuana as a form of treatment, and for me it worked perfectly , immediately and completely, the next step was to move away from the problematic aspect of it , the legal one . to be able to get this amazing treatment legally , and not put friends and loved ones in the path of prosecution.

My doctor was understanding and compassionate and signed the form but we are now jumping through a myriad of hoops trying to make this happen and it is difficult , there are a thousand corners to turn , each one requiring a new form to be filled out , id pictures that need to be taken, all of which is costing me money, there are no dispensaries here so it's either order online or go to vapour , which I am unfamiliar with, but so far this is the only course of treatment that has been effective , I WILL continue to pursue it and so my fellow survivors I find myself in need of info on the vapour thing, let me know please , I'm easy to find , just look in Strokeland...Phil