Good Morning Strokeland!!!

June 13/15

My brain, the traitorous thing was once a master of sending signals, mostly regarding getting me out of trouble (trouble that the damned thing had gotten me into) but the radio station at brain central is dark and quiet now, lights are off, the transmitter torn down, the turntable is still playing a good old Zeppelin tune, but the wires are cut, the signals being sent to my limbs are getting scrambled badly along the way. and feedback signals coming back from the limbs (etc.are doing the same thing , the airwaves are a mess ! 

Once , during a physio session , standing in a hospital hallway I was trying to walk , I signalled the left leg to take a step it did so , the leg must have a big antenna (I tell people it's big anyway.) , I moved the cane in my right hand into an advanced position , all good so far and the signal came through to head office , leg and cane in position "we are secure" , the signal was amazingly clean everything I had sent out was accomplished as commanded and the airwaves were Chrystal clear , it was so wonderfully alien to me , it was a blow to my damaged brain that systems were still operating somewhere , an emotional moment for me certainly.

 Since then and up until that moment , I had and have been bombarded with a barrage of angry static all the time , 24/7 , angry tingling and miscommunication the only thing playing on that previously clear channel was angry painful static still is . I found the off switch the other night while exploring my new hemp based treatment , the static , like the pain was shut down , the constant loud blast of garbled signal was silent , blissfully silent , it was so relaxing so different . and here I am climbing back up on this horse again , going on about pot but I my friends am convinced , sold , on the bandwagon , hungry for a brownie , on a course that the professionals I sought out didn’t suggest , it was my wife , who has never attended medical school , the girl that solved the mysterious medication allergy I had since the stroke , who prodded me to free myself from the grip of the pain (and the static), so I aint gonna shut up anytime soon , I am sending out this signal to you dear survivor , to let you know that other stations are on the air , as frustrated as you are , just as hungry for a clear reply and I'll keep broadcasting , hope it’s getting to you out there...signing off for now Phil.